5x09 ranting “smashed”
#hot hot hot
Seriously, okay. Here’s the thing. When I was a kid, this was so awkward to watch. But now rewatching it, nothing is hotter than season 6 Spike, and NOTHING is better than the end of the episode where Spike and Buffy have a fist flying battle with each other, only to end up having sex so intense that they bring down down the house with them. It’s so awesome when Spike realizes he can hit Buffy without the chip in his head going off, it’s like the doors have opened right up, so he can finally cause her the pain that she causes him. And so when they finally go at it, there’s just so much coming out, Buffy can’t resist it. He’s all she has right now. He’s the only one who doesn’t smother her, who understands what she’s going through and that she needs the darkness. He is her escape. And now finally, FINALLY, she’s letting him in… at least physically. OH MY GOD ITS SO AMAZING IF YOU DO NOT APPRECIATE THESE TWO CHARACTERS THEN YOU ARE WRONG MY FRIEND VERY VERY WRONG
"I don’t think actors should ever expect to get a role, because the disappointment is too great. You’ve got to think of things as an opportunity. An audition’s an opportunity to have an audience."
help I’m having emotions about a cartoon antidepressant trying to be useful
DID YOU GUYS SERIOUSLY GIF AN ABILIFY COMMERCIAL
yes but look at it, it cares about her and just wants to help her be able to function. It’s like “I know you’re sad. here, I’ll help you.”
LIKE OKAY THOUGH can I explain why this is exceedingly brilliant?? Because when anti-depressants work right, that’s what they DO. They don’t make you happy or emotionless or unhealthy in any way, they make you FUNCTIONAL. They make it so that a depressed person who can barely get out of bed can start to support themselves again and more importantly, start to THINK for themselves again without the permeating presence of depression.
Depression is a cyclical disease, that tells you to think a certain way, and, because you’re depressed, you generally believe it, and then things get worse and worse. The ONLY thing anti-depressants do is to STOP that cycle in its tracks!! Which is something to be ecstatic about and celebrated, even if you don’t realize it at the time, because when you’re depressed, getting out of bed is climbing Mount Everest. Antidepressants help stop that cycle so that one day soon, getting out of bed can JUST be getting out of bed. They don’t even expedite the recovery process in most cases, they just make recovery POSSIBLE IN THE FIRST PLACE. So this little guy is portrayed with a fuckton more accuracy than I ever expected from a commercial.
It’s back and adorable
Ah, so that’s why antidepressants are also known as tricyclics in drug classifications. Cool.
hey darling. i don't know if you're aware, but if you want your posts to show up in searches (and people searching specific tags might see it, and that's how most followers are gained), you should hit enter after each tag you put in and make them separate tags, rather than just one long line. so, if your tags are btvs, spuffy, bangel - put in btvs, hit enter. then put spuffy, hit enter. bangel, hit enter. now they're all their own tags. hope that helps you out. (:
i just want you to know i could kiss you right now. i always wondered why my tags looked funny, and if people were seeing them right. now it makes sense. i still clearly have a lot to learn and that helps tremendously :) merci beaucoup. xo
thoughts on my babies.
#buffy ranting btvs spuffy my otp angel bangel oh my heart
i’ve been thinking lately about how to describe angel and buffys relationship vs. spike and buffy. for a while, i had a difficult time finding the right words. their loves are so unique from one another - and i hate when people try to compare, “buffy loved angel more, buffy loved spike more, etc” - because in reality, she loved them both on totally, totally different levels.
angel will always be her true love. her first love. her passion. her white knight. that was the most real love and desire someone can have, especially so young. there was nothing they wouldn’t do for each other, no obstacle they wouldn’t overcome. which, to be honest, always bugged me just a teeny bit. only because angel had to LOSE his soul in order to become bad, its like all the slaughter and torture he did over 100 years never really mattered. but, when it came to spike, even when he did good things without a soul, buffy always held it against him and found him repulsive. (which always made my spuffy heart really sad). but angel was simply what she wanted. he would always be what she wanted.
spike, on the other hand, was what she needed. she needed him so badly but she could never admit it. he was desire. he was heat. he was her punching bag. her savior from herself. her darkness. i love the moments when he first discovered he was falling for her - he was so angry, but so sensitive at the same time. how could you not laugh at his fumbling advances and attempts to win her heart. and over the course of the seasons (well 6 & 7) we truly get to see who spike really is.. or could have been… as a man. especially once he regains his soul, its as if he is william again. although initially, most of his good deeds are driven by selfishness, he gradually becomes selfless, enduring torture and an endless amount of pain only to help buffy and keep her safe & happy.
anyway, enough of the ranting. my point being is that, angel was her white knight - he was what she wanted and would always want. but spike was her dark knight, and was what she needed. he was what got her through the most difficult points of her life. he kept her alive. she will always love both of them. (and even though sarah says buffy will always pick angel, joss whedon has shown us hes on the spike train himself. win.)
night night folks xo
more buffy ranting
#btvs buffy riley season 5 into the woods
i just finished episode 10 season 5, “into the woods” - and i have to say, even though most people disliked riley, i really quite adored him. i think he was good for buffy during that period of her life. he was sincerely devoted to her, and aside from the initiative history, he had nothing to hide. it was a perfectly normal, healthy relationship. of course he doesn’t rank up there with spike, but thats not my point here.
the point im trying to make is that the end of that episode was really quite hurtful. after they fight and riley leaves, xander knocks some sense into buffy to get off her high horse and realize that riley deserves her love, and if she can’t give that, then she needs to let him go. upon realizing hes right, she runs as fast as she can to get to him before he leaves for good. he stands there at the helicopter, staring into the night, waiting for her, hoping desperately that she’ll appear in front of him. he waits. we wait. shes still running. finally, he lowers his head, thinking she won’t come. he turns around and climbs up into the chopper.
"…maybe he’ll come back. maybe i’ll get to say all the things i didn’t get to say."
i think this hit home for so many people, simply because most of the time, this is what happens with break ups. you think everything is okay, until one day, the fall out happens. and if in the midst of that fallout, that person leaves before you get the chance to make things right, and the weight of not knowing how things may have turned out stays with you. and its painful, and confusing, and you feel a lot of regret. like buffy did. and i just felt so bad for her, watching as she got to him just he was taking off, but riley was looking the other way. i was getting angry at my laptop, actually shouting, "damnit riley, look! look at her! she’s right there! riley LOOK! DAMNIT!" as his chopper lifted into the air and buffy watched on helplessly, her yelling muted by the choppers blades. my eyes welled up with tears, and i kept thinking, there’s no way he won’t even look at her.. he has to.. just to see her and know that she came for him.
but no. there was no look. the chopper turned and flew away into the night, and buffy never said goodbye.
cue heartbreak. ouch.
more buffy ranting.
#tara willow buffy feels my second otp makes the bad feels go away
do you know what i just realized? i’m almost through season 4 of btvs, and im absolutely mind-blown by the character development that has occurred… not from buffy herself, but by willow. i mean, of course ALL of the characters have been growing over the past four seasons, but honest to god, willow just makes my heart hurt and swell and feel all these feels, because she has come so, so far.
think about it. from her days in highschool, her love for xander, meeting oz, having her first relationship and having something so real (followed by oz leaving and the heart wrenching grief she went through)… her growth with magic… and then meeting tara - falling in love with tara - and upon oz’s return to sunnydale, being able to tell him that a part of him will always be with her, but just not now, because she’s finally happy, and she’s learning to be content with herself. and even when she returns to taras room and tries to tell her, and tara goes, “no, it’s okay, i understand. you… have to be with the person you l-love,” so sadly. only to have willow look at her with her sweet smile and say, “i am.” and you just melt. so many cozy, warm, love feels, and i just LOVE TARA AND WILLOW SO MUCH OKAY.
The bandage was wound around the wound.
The farm was used to produce produce.
The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
We must polish the Polish furniture.
He could lead if he would get the lead out.
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